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Category Archives: On Miscarrying
Marked with Infertility
Bear with me, it has been a while. My Trying to Conceive history: Easy conception in December of 2006 and then a 10 week “missed” miscarriage. D&C. Doctor discovered a septate in my uterus. Nurse incorrectly advised me to “go … Continue reading →
25 Weeks: The Gift of Infertility
There I was, kissing my two year old angel goodbye, and struggling to climb semi gracefully out of the car. At 25 weeks pregnant, “graceful” is quickly becoming a thing of the past. I balanced a handful of trash, my … Continue reading →
Trusting in the Midst of Grief
These past two weeks have been a roller coaster. We found out we were pregnant on January 5, much to our surprise considering our history of struggling to conceive. And thus we began the wonderful journey of early pregnancy–cautious hope, … Continue reading →
I Don’t Want to Want It
“I just really don’t want to want it again, until I get it, and then I want to want it fully. Make sense?” I muttered this to my husband as we both attempted to drift to sleep, each battling our … Continue reading →
The Luxury of an Oops
Ever since I miscarried last week, I’ve had this phrase rolling through my mind: Luxury of an Oops It has occurred to me that having an “oops” pregnancy, while unexpected and kinda stressful, is actually a luxury. At least from … Continue reading →
Unexpected … Miscarriage
It’s amazing how something you weren’t expecting and not trying for can change your whole train of thought. Alter your entire way of thinking about the near future. Morph the image in your mind of the next steps. On July … Continue reading →
TED talk: Glad I watched
Three weeks ago, my pastor sent me a link to a TED talk, saying that I might be interested. Today I finally took the time to watch it. He had said he was hooked by 8 minutes in. At two … Continue reading →
Week 30: Didn’t, Wasn’t … Did, Am.
For so many months, I didn’t. For so long, I wasn’t. Many months, others did. Many times, others were. And I didn’t, and wasn’t. And yet, here I sit–I did, and I am. I’m the lady breathing heavily while wandering … Continue reading →
Innocence Lost
Pregnancy is an amazing gift. A joyous surprise. A wonderful piece of news to share. But it’s different when you’ve miscarried. There’s hesitancy, a lack of excitement. Doubt rules, and fears overwhelm. Where jumping and screaming should occur, looks of … Continue reading →
Stages of Pregnancy … Not My Own
I am becoming an expert on the stages of pregnancy. Sadly, not my own, since neither of mine have gotten much further than pee on a stick, get excited, bond a little tiny bit with the essence of the being … Continue reading →
Glimpses of Me: Choosing Motherhood 